Destroying my idols
Dec25

Destroying my idols

(Click to enlarge) I don’t know what the actual fuck is wrong with the universe, but 2016 can go right along with 2014 and 2015 and fuck themselves. I haven’t had so many crap years back to back since high school. 2017 WILL BE AMAZING: I DEMAND IT BE SO. I was out of the country when Bowie returned to the stars in his spiritual space ship. I was too utterly fucked up for months to discuss Prince walking off suddenly into...

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My return to the light
Sep07

My return to the light

I just got back last night from a week-long trip to France. I revisited a few favorite spots, but most of the trip focused on places that were new to me. I finally visited Giverny, Fourges, and Versailles (all of which have been on my bucket list for a very long time, and they’re all superlative); I revisited Montmartre and Sacré Coeur, but that same day I finally got to spend several hours at Le Musée d’Orsay; Thursday...

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Happy Birthday, you can get married!
Jun26

Happy Birthday, you can get married!

Spoiler Alert: Dark and heavy existential crisis ahead. Go elsewhere, if this isn’t what you want right now. I’m leaving Sunday for a week in Scotland. I very much look forward to being there. I need a break from reality. If you continue reading, you might understand better why I crave escapism at the moment. I haven’t blogged consistently for years. At first I felt I had nothing new to say: I didn’t think it...

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Two couplets for Gramma
Mar05

Two couplets for Gramma

Gramma will pass away soon. She’s an artist and an author, so I wrote some couplets to give her tomorrow when I visit (click the picture to enlarge it). A recurrent theme in my creative works is the seasons. I don’t know who the artist is who made this beautiful image of a tree and landscape in all phases of the year, but I thought it was inspired. If anyone knows who made the image, please let me know so I can credit...

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The bell tolls…
Feb16

The bell tolls…

This week my gramma, one of the most important people in my entire life, started hospice care. People go in and out of it, so it isn’t a death knell per se; however, she has always been a powerfully intellectual and creative person. She was chugging along as her body failed her (when she could no longer draw or paint, she shifted to assembling and decorating doll houses, as well as making elaborate YouTube videos focusing on her...

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My impression of myself
Nov26

My impression of myself

This entry is going to be all over the place, because there’s a great deal going on lately that doesn’t feel connected (but I know it is somehow… I’ll improvise at the conclusion). The Michael Brown incident is currently triggering demonstrations all across the United States, now that a Grand Jury has decided not to indict Officer Wilson. Two weeks ago my friend, and former boyfriend, Shane passed away from...

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Tempus fugit
Oct25

Tempus fugit

I almost stepped on this lethargic beauty… Probably the last butterfly of the season for 2013. I fear it will die tonight on the first evening of freezing temperatures. I thought it a good idea to take a moment to reflect on the fleeting nature of time, life, and light.

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Too late to apologize
Dec21

Too late to apologize

Quite a while back I wrote a blog entry about a man named Randy. To summarize the entry shortly: I feared that I was in danger of doing to someone else what Randy had inflicted on me. On a whim, I Googled Randy tonight. Randomly. Something moved me, and I wanted to know if he was okay. And I found out that he is dead. That is startling. Not because it’s a shock to find out he died (he was an undiagnosed biploar alcoholic,...

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Samhain 2011: RIP Grampa
Nov02

Samhain 2011: RIP Grampa

It was a glorious day: The colors were vibrant, but just past their prime, and there were icicles everywhere. There had been a snow storm the night before, so the symbolism was perfect. There was beauty everywhere, though it sometimes seemed a bit browbeaten. The earth is going to sleep for a spell. And we are on the cusp of rest and temporary death. The sky was incredible – the colors in the clouds were gorgeous. I trekked up...

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RIP: Grampa V

I don’t really know why I’m doing this, or why my first impulse is to come here and write it. I don’t know if it’s symptomatic of living in a Twitter/Facebook world, or if it’s because I think of my blog as a safe space where I can just get everything out of my head. Either way, it’s a mix of shame and shock I’m feeling for doing this here; however, I don’t know where or how else to...

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