So long… farewell, auf wiedersehen, goodbye.
Apr11

So long… farewell, auf wiedersehen, goodbye.

I haven’t been active much for quite a long time, but I wanted to leave off with a fond farewell. I’ve never really recovered from what happened last summer, and my heart hasn’t been at all in trying to figure out the business in a post-RentBoy world. For whatever it’s worth, I hope I’ve left people and places better than I found them. That was always my goal anyway. I wish you all the best, and thank you...

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Destroying my idols
Dec25

Destroying my idols

(Click to enlarge) I don’t know what the actual fuck is wrong with the universe, but 2016 can go right along with 2014 and 2015 and fuck themselves. I haven’t had so many crap years back to back since high school. 2017 WILL BE AMAZING: I DEMAND IT BE SO. I was out of the country when Bowie returned to the stars in his spiritual space ship. I was too utterly fucked up for months to discuss Prince walking off suddenly into...

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Happy birthday, gramma
Sep11

Happy birthday, gramma

Today is the first time that I don’t need to call gramma to wish her a happy birthday and happy anniversary (she married grampa on her 20th birthday). It takes some getting used to.

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Happy Birthday, you can get married!
Jun26

Happy Birthday, you can get married!

Spoiler Alert: Dark and heavy existential crisis ahead. Go elsewhere, if this isn’t what you want right now. I’m leaving Sunday for a week in Scotland. I very much look forward to being there. I need a break from reality. If you continue reading, you might understand better why I crave escapism at the moment. I haven’t blogged consistently¬†for years. At first I felt I had nothing new to say: I didn’t think it...

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Two couplets for Gramma
Mar05

Two couplets for Gramma

Gramma will pass away soon. She’s an artist and an author, so I wrote some couplets to give her tomorrow when I visit (click the picture to enlarge it). A recurrent theme in my creative works is the seasons. I don’t know who the artist is who made this beautiful image of a tree and landscape in all phases of the year, but I thought it was inspired. If anyone knows who made the image, please let me know so I can credit...

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The bell tolls…
Feb16

The bell tolls…

This week my gramma, one of the most important people in my entire life, started hospice care. People go in and out of it, so it isn’t a death knell per se; however, she has always been a powerfully intellectual and creative person. She was chugging along as her body failed her (when she could no longer draw or paint, she shifted to assembling and decorating doll houses, as well as making elaborate YouTube videos focusing on her...

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Fred Phelps: Rest In Piss
Mar20

Fred Phelps: Rest In Piss

Okay, the day is stunningly gorgeous, my mood is buoyant, I feel amazing, Spring may finally be sprung, and everyone and everything seems to be exploding with happiness. All around me people are laughing and smiling, the trees are putting out flowers, the sun is punching through, I need to take my jacket off finally, and then I look at the news… Fred Phelps is dead. The whole world seems to be celebrating, whether aware of this...

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Firing Clients: A Rant
Mar09

Firing Clients: A Rant

Fair warning: I am about to have a fucking rant. And if you don’t want to read that type of energy, now is the time to click off here and go somewhere else. I’m pissed, and this is my diary, and I need to get some shit off my chest. It isn’t pleasant, but sometimes it has to be done. And I’ve done it twice this weekend: I fired two clients. Perhaps I’m just getting too saturated with idiotic bullshit to...

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Nailed it!
Sep06

Nailed it!

Lately I have been roiled with feelings of inadequacy. I mean, truly shitty feelings. I’ve not felt this bad in YEARS, and I had forgotten exactly how powerfully awful my emotions can get. I don’t take for granted the many consecutive years of happiness I enjoyed, and I really need to get back to that place where I was content and brimming with gratitude. I am not in full-blown depression, but I have come closer these last...

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RIP @JasminePetite
Jul12

RIP @JasminePetite

Petite Jasmine was murdered, and I am so sad and angry about it that I feel compelled to blog about it. I have said/apologized in my “recent” entries that I haven’t blogged consistently for a while, because I haven’t needed to. I haven’t had a reason, or I haven’t wanted to be repetitive. This blog is my diary, and it has many purposes (one of which has been to be a place to discuss issues that are...

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