So long… farewell, auf wiedersehen, goodbye.
Apr11

So long… farewell, auf wiedersehen, goodbye.

I haven’t been active much for quite a long time, but I wanted to leave off with a fond farewell. I’ve never really recovered from what happened last summer, and my heart hasn’t been at all in trying to figure out the business in a post-RentBoy world. For whatever it’s worth, I hope I’ve left people and places better than I found them. That was always my goal anyway. I wish you all the best, and thank you...

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The beginning of the end
Feb23

The beginning of the end

Many years ago now (it’s so strange to say that, but this blog is nearly 10 years old) I began a journey. 2007-2009 I went back to dancing in clubs after being in an abusive relationship wherein I was defrauded for $100k. In 2009 I did some videos, both to launch my escorting career and to learn how the scenes were produced, didn’t like how they were made, and decided I could do better content. In 2010 I did more videos to...

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zhè shì shén me?
Nov20

zhè shì shén me?

It’s new news on my blog, so many of you don’t know I started it (again); however, I have been using Rosetta Stone to learn Mandarin Chinese. I started it once back in 2005, but then I started teaching at Winthrop only two weeks after starting, and then everything happened with the credit card fraud in 2006. With all that turbulence, I completely shrugged it off for years. I always wanted to begin again, and now I finally...

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Costa Rica
May17

Costa Rica

During the first week of May 2014 I was in La Fortuna, Costa Rica. It was an amazing experience (click the pics to enlarge them). So affecting that I am redecorating my patio to emulate what I experienced there. Each room in my home evokes a season of the year and a culture I have studied, admired, and/or seen in person. Everything about Costa Rica was enchanting, and the more I learned about its history, people, and culture the more...

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Risk & Reward
Apr26

Risk & Reward

(Note: Do not play the bets listed in Spinning the Wheel – they are far, far, far too complex to manage in real life [though they worked beautifully on the iPad app], and the outside bets weigh down your wins [though they also mitigate your losses]. Keep it simple!!) I used to say that I don’t gamble, because I never win. That isn’t true at all. Without meaning to be arrogant, I have won the genetic lottery:...

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Cosa vado a vedere a Venezia
Mar31

Cosa vado a vedere a Venezia

In the morning I am heading to Venice, Italy for a week. I am so excited! I have wanted to see Venice in person for nearly 20 years. My fascination with it began when I was studying Renaissance Art during my senior year of college, but intensified in 1999 after I first accidentally stumbled upon a showing of  “Dangerous Beauty.” The movie is a fictionalized/idealized narrative about a woman named Veronica Franco, and she...

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They’re ba-ack… I cast thee out!
Jul17

They’re ba-ack… I cast thee out!

The last several days have been incredibly topsey turvey. I was in Denver for the first time this past weekend (trying to relax from a very hectic two weeks after the launch of my new site), and feeling really great about a decision I made before my wedding to recreate my diet, fitness, and body. I am now 36 years old, and I know that at some point in the next several years my testosterone levels will change, and it will become even...

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Happy Birthday! “I Do”
Jun29

Happy Birthday! “I Do”

On December 21, 2010 at 3:14 am EST I engaged myself during the first total Lunar Eclipse on a Winter Solstice since 1658. It was a very significant moment for me, and over these last 18 months I have been preparing for today: My 36th birthday. Today I will marry myself in private, but tomorrow at noon I will repeat the process in front of witnesses as part of a formalized ceremony with a spiritual guide to officiate in a sacred...

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Taking off the mask
Apr25

Taking off the mask

So, the idea behind the theme of my wedding is that we create beautiful or idealized façades that we hide behind, and the process of marrying myself has been one where I have had to look at myself as I am and try to accept what I find (which can be terrifying, in all honesty). No mask, no hiding, just plain old me. But now that the mask has arrived, I have made an accidental discovery that is metaphoric in itself: Wearing this mask is...

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I’m comin’ home
Apr25

I’m comin’ home

I have never had a home in the way most people think of it. I have always admired trees, because they put roots down. They stay. They make a whole life in one place. Isn’t that incredible?? There is no place (other than my Gramma’s house) that has ever felt like a consistent place for ME. Grampa and Gramma stayed put in their house, and I have always been able to go back to that house; however, my current apartment will be...

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