Sometimes it seems like the universe is really intent on being a cuntfaced bitch, ya know? I was just in DC, and a completely random internet troll singled me out for some pretty intensely hateful shit. I mean, really? What the hell? I have no idea who this person is or why I won the lotto on getting his attention. And how do these utterly shameful bullies always know exactly what to say to cut your face to the bone? HOW? How do they know what to say???
Suffice it to say that on top of all the other many stressors competing for my attention lately, I definitely didn’t need someone telling me I’m not worth $0.50, that I am “wimpy,” and that he didn’t understand how I made a living at all. Really? In what universe am I wimpy? It’s laughably absurd, except that it hurts intensely badly (especially since it was completely unprovoked).
But you know what? Every time I think I have slipped into total irrelevance, every time I wonder if I should even bother keeping this blog online, and every time I presume no one needs to see anything I have learned during my process of screwing up… Someone reminds me that I do matter, that I have made a ripple in the pond. A random, kind email from an appreciative colleague is 10x more powerful than a random, hate-spewing email from a troll. You may never see this blog entry, but if you do: Thank you, Taylor!
Thank you from the bottom of my heart. xoxo